I really need to post here more often! I recently heard from a Blogger that I followed many, many years ago. This made me think about all the Blogger friends I've made and then lost over the years as they stopped posting and their domains were deleted or taken over.  I'm part of the problem - not posting on a regular basis.  I need to re-start!

Chastity Cages

 I recently started my journey into chastity cages.  I had know about them for many years thanks to the Internet and started feeling that they would complement my crossdressing and submissiveness.

There are so many chastity cages available - Amazon and Etsy are easy places to find them, as are adult stores/websites and there are many manufacturers that have their own websites.

I found my first one on Amazon. It was a pink silicone cage with a few different sized rings and extensions. For a first try I thought this would be a good place to start as silicone is easy to cut through if I ran into problems.  I liked the texture and the different sized base rings.  I found the base ring that fit the best, and started out with all of the extensions installed. I removed the extensions until I found the right level of length restriction. However, the sleeve was too a bit too big in diameter for my taste - I would have liked a smaller diameter sleeve to feel more constricted.  Overall this is a good place to start for someone with no experience with cages or someone looking for a non-metallic and flexible cage.

My next cage was also from Amazon and it was a rigid plastic cage.  I bought the standard size in clear with sparkles (fun!), and it also had multiple base rings.  I liked this one better than the flexible silicone cage. It felt much more secure / snug / hands-off. Erections were much more confined. The only dislike was the lock mechanism. I would have preferred a padlock rather than the insertable rotating lock.  The alignment between the base ring and sleeve made the insertable rotating lock sometimes hard to remove. I guess that's the point of a chastity cage, but I think its more of a manufacturing measurement tolerance issue.

I considered a metal cage for the next. There are so many different designs available that I got lost in the choices. While looking for a metal cage I found penis sleeves, again something I had heard about a long time ago. I though this might be something to try. I'm hoping this one from Amazon will be a good one, so I'll give you my review once I receive it. I'm hoping that it will do several things. Primarily I want it to prevent me from stroking my cock (similar to a cage) while confining it when flaccid and erect. I can stroke the sleeve but not my cock. Secondarily provide some constriction around my cock and balls. And lastly it may provide some level of humiliation as it will be a visual reminder that it is bigger than me, that I'm in a cage, and if I do show anyone else that they can laugh at me.

I also bought a new pink dress and pink stockings to wear with it. Panties and bra I have. The sleeve will be hard to hide in the panties.

While looking for the metal cages and sleeves, i was looking at the very smallest cages - they kind of look like a button with a ring around it. To me this could be the ultimate in confinement and humiliation - there's not much to see other than one's balls.  However, I did find something new - a penis clip or fufu. Amazon gave no clue as to how to use it, but I did find some info on Reddit.  Basically, you push your penis and balls inward and behind the clip, pull the scrotum flesh out through the middle oval, and then spread it out and push it behind the inside of the outer ring. Its easier to see a video of someone doing it.

Anyway, the effect of wearing the fufu is that the penis and balls are not visible as they are behind the clip inside the body, giving the wearer the look sort of like an engorged vagina. I think this would provide the most humiliation and submissiveness as the male is visibly emasculated, especially if crossdressed.  The downside I see with this is that there's no lock to enforce the wearer's conformity. I need to do more research...

Maybe More Fun Time

In a few weeks I might have some extended fun time, so its time to start planning preparing. I've already started making a list at Amazon for some new things: chastity cage, anal vibrator, pink panties, white bra, white stockings, a nice white golf dress, white shorts, and matching flats. I picked the flats over heels as nothing appealed to me so far - I'll keep looking until I need to place the order. I'll post pictures here when the clothes arrive - please comment as you see fit.

Here's the list at Amazon. 

 I'm really excited for this. I've not worn a chastity cage before. I think this will help keep me focused on not touching myself while doing other things. Those other things will hopefully include spending some time in chat rooms and discords, taking photos, and camming. I also want to go out in public. The dress should be short enough that it will look like a long shirt and cover some of the shorts, or I might be able to tuck it in to the shorts. The white shorts will definitely show off the panties. 

 I'm also considering a pink satin sissy dress. I've been interested in the sissy style recently. White pantyhose/stockings and/or socks with a frilly ruffled top would complete the look. This would be fun to wear while camming. 

 What could make this more fun? I think having someone or a few others participate, either in person or by video. At the start of the day I would strip down, put on an outfit, and present myself for inspection. I'd make any corrections that they see necessary. We could chat while we're on-line about the things we're doing and seeing. They might also give me tasks to perform for them throughout the day: tell me how to control the vibrator, pose for the camera, change outfits, etc. One thing that might be exciting is they would have me go somewhere in whatever outfit and take a selfie to show them that I did it - maybe go through a fast-food drive-through. 

 Do you have any suggestions?

Still Here!

 Yes, I'm still here.  Haven't posted in a very long time as there wasn't much to post about.

Last month I got to spend an overnight in a hotel room while traveling and had some 'me time'.  I had my hopes up for something great, but due to a lack of time I couldn't make it better.  

On the way to the hotel I stopped at the local Adult Mart for some toys in rural farm country.  Very interesting clientele - not the usual 'dirty old men'.  All were in their 20's and 30's, some MF couples and a few FF couples.  After finding the butt plugs the salesgirl came over and picked one off the shelf - "Is this too big?" she asked, holding up a slim plug.  Um, no, I answered.  She then told me to stay away from the 'jelly' type plugs as they are hard to clean.  I loved getting the advice!  I found one that was more my size and bought it.  Not sure she was impressed with my choice or not.

Then I found a Target to buy pantyhose, panties, and a bra.  I would have bought more but the store was closing soon and I also wanted to get to the DSW for shoes.  No luck with the shoes :(

By the time I arrived at the hotel it was about 10PM and it was very quite.  I showered and put on some nice fragrant body lotion, the panties, the pantyhose, the bra, and then a top and pants.  I went down to the lobby to show off, but all was quiet and the desk clerk didn't bother to look up.

I didn't have my laptop with me so surfing the 'Net and camming/chatting was very difficult with my smartphone.  I connected with someone on Discord and we had some fun for a while until his wife pulled him away from the computer.  He said that sometimes she participates, but not tonight.  This left me hard and hanging, so phonesex was the next best thing.

I called my usual phonesex line.  The operator must have been either distracted or high as she kept dropping the phone and hanging up.  After trying several times she finally put me through to one of the girls.  Whatever she was doing, she forgot to get my payment info so I think my call was for free.  Anyway, the woman that I did talk to was amazing!  She knew just what to say, allowed me to indulge in my fantasies, leaving me worn out.  One thing we did was I was on the phone with her while I walked down to the lobby again wearing shorts over the pantyhose.  I was really hoping I'd get caught but no luck.

I think the next time I'll be able to have an extended amount of 'me time' will be in June.  I'm not sure how many days I'll get, but I'm already planning to shop for shoes, hosiery, panties, bras, new toys - the anticipation is killing me!

Face Masks

I saw this image at another blog yesterday and my mind just started wandering about it and if that were my SO. My first pervy though was that I’d love it if She did that to all of Her pajama bottoms – free access (at least for viewing) to that lovely tushy. Then I thought about the scent of the cloth – wearing a facemask made of Her pj bottoms would be heavenly! I’d probably be hard & horny whenever wearing it. Then I thought about the masks that I do wear. Hmmm, maybe if She put one in Her panties for the day I could wear that mask the next day. I do love to sniff Her panties. I could wear the mask anywhere and no one would be the wiser that I’m inhaling Her scent with every breath!

Cock Hero

This is something new to me - cock hero videos.  Basically, it is like Guitar Hero, only instead of strumming a toy guitar, you are stroking your cock.  And if you have a partner that likes to play along, like this guy's, it could be even more fun.



Cock Hero MARATHON!!! (Plus a fuck break



This is certainly something that I'd like to do more often with a partner.  The fun is that the stroking is under their control!

Over the weekend during some internet browsing on Reddit, a video post caught my interest on the subjects of forced orgasm and forced intimacy, which then lead me down the rabbit hole of looking at more videos of forced intimacy.  This is somewhat related to bondage as that's the best way to force somebody into a situation, but bondage is not always needed.

What intrigues me about forced intimacy is that the two people are bound together and stimulated or punished by an external force.  Neither has a choice as to how the other person reacts or feels.  One of them might like it and the other may not, or one may feed off of the pleasure/pain of the other, but either way they are in it together.

For forced orgasm, one basic scene is someone tied to a bed and a vibrator tied to their genitals, or maybe a dildo on a motor that's penetrating their ass or pussy, or teased by someones hands.  They can't move or get away from it.  Someone else is controlling the speed, duration, tempo of the scene.  Why do I like this?  i think it has to do with the lack of control that the person has, and that I'd like to be in that position - powerless to get away, powerless to do anything other than react to what the outside person would be doing to me.  Also, the humiliation of being on display for anyone to see me in such a position and then my reactions - not being able to hide me or my reactions.  Another aspect is being edged and teased, and then stimulation being withheld, maybe my orgasm being ruined.  Some videos show the person being slapped either in the face or ass - i think I'd very much like that too (however, I'm not into anything more painful than that).  Examples here, here, and here. Here too.

The 'wet and messy' (WAM) scene is similar to this - liquids being poured over someone, or pies to the face and body.  The person usually has little control over what will happen.  i've wanted that to be part of the fantasy scene.  The other side of this for me is that i'd love to be made to lick clean a Woman that has been covered in whipped cream, custard, pudding, etc.  Maybe She simply puts Her feet in a bowl of pudding and i need to lick Her feed clean, or She sits on a cake and i have to eat the cake off of Her ass.

Another video of what i think could have been forced intimacy was of a man and woman in the 69 position, Her on top.  They weren't tied together.  She was giving the guy a very nice sensual bj.  When he came, She got up and immediately gave him a very long and deep french kiss, passing his cum back to him.  It was very sensual.  my view was that She was in control, the dominant of the two.  Maybe he didn't want his own cum, but he submitted to Her desires.  The intimacy of sharing cum is something that i really wish to experience.  i mean, if She's expected to give him a bj and take his cum, he should also be expected to swallow too.  Was it forced on him by Her?  i'm not completely sure.  Maybe he likes it.  However, if it were me in the scene, i would accept it because She wants me to, She's giving me a gift.  It would demonstrate Her dominance over me.
There was a scene in the Japanese film Tampopo where a man and Woman share a raw egg.  The man cracked an egg and separated the yolk, and put the yolk in his mouth.  He then passed the yolk to the Woman by mouth, who then passed it back to him by mouth, and then back to Her.
I also recall a few years ago seeing a video of two couples in a contest.  Each couple had a gallon jug of chocolate milk and an empty bucket.  The woman was to take a mouthful of milk from the jug and pass it by mouth to the guy's mouth, and then he spits it into the bucket.  The contest was to see which pair could empty the jug and fill the bucket the fastest.

Okay, drifting off topic there some.  Back to forced intimacy. Here, here, here, and here.

Discord, Reddit, and Chatropolis

Hey look! A new post!

I recently signed-up for an account at Discord.  Anyone else go there?  I'm just starting to get a feel for the site.  It is made up of many different servers or sites, and each server or site is pretty much whatever the moderators want it to be. I found a few seedier ones that align with my interests, and am still looking for others.  Let me know if you're there and we can connect, and if you have any suggested servers for me to check out.

I've been on Chatropolis for some time now.  I'm not there regularly, but it is a good place to hang out and share photos.

Reddit is another place that I'm at.  Let me know if you're there too.

New interest in the last few weeks that also piques my crossdressing interest: the fashion of Asian Women's Golf:

Not only do I lust after them, I want to dress like them. I'm putty when I look at them!

Tumblr?

As many of you know, Tumblr clamped down on pornography in December.  Tumblr for me has now become a good source of softporn and clothing fetishes - swimsuits, lingerie, socks, feet, heels.  One of these days I'll have to sort through all of the accounts that I follow that have stopped posting.

Since then I've signed up for MeWe.com and Sharesome.com.  Neither really seems to be a great substitute.

One new thing that I've started to fetishize is women's golfing, especially Korean and Japanese women's outfits.  For some reason I just can't seem to get enough of them!  And the crossdresser in me really, really, really, wants to get a few of those outfits!  I have many other photos on my Pintrest account.

Nothing new, just posting to keep the blog alive.

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Upcuming Travel

It looks like I'll have two business trips later this fall, a week in mid-September and a week at the end of October.  My mind is racing just thinking about the time I'll have to myself after work.

Since the trips are within driving distance, I'll be able to go shopping on my ways to the hotels: new heels, new panties, a bra, some stockings or pantyhose.  Maybe some outerwear.  Short-shorts if I can find them that late in the season, maybe a bikini or one-piece swim suit. That time of year will be good for running, so maybe a pair of women's running shorts and a running top.  The second trip is over Halloween, so that will be a perfect opportunity to go out crossdressed - just need to get the costume right.  Any suggestions??

Activities planned:

• I'll renew my Chatropolis membership so I can have unrestricted access to the chat rooms.  I probably spend way too much time there when I do have the time.  It's interface is old, but its always active.
• Dress up and go out for coffee at a Starbucks or other coffee shop.  I love it when folks figure out  that I'm wearing women's clothes.
• Shopping for clothes and a trip to an adult bookstore (if I can find one) for some toys.

The thing I like about Chatropolis is chatting with others that have the same or similar interests that I have, and sharing the image postings.  It would be neat if I had friends on any of the boards.  Occasionally I'll chat with someone that I've chatted with before, but that's hit or miss.  What would be even cooler is meeting up with others.  Not for intimate activities between us, but to be in the same room while being on the boards to share the experience.

Being dressed-up in a hotel room brings along with it a whole host of fantasies, centered mainly around 'getting caught' by a dominant female, be that a maid, room service waitress, or other hotel guest.  They would catch me all dressed up, be disgusted at my behavior, and then proceed to humiliate and dominate me.

UPDATE 9/8/17: Both trips were cancelled.  Argh!

When I first saw this picture, I passed it by quickly, but something caught my eye and I went back to look at Her in more detail.  Maybe it was Her legs, Her belly, Her pose, the look on Her face, the manicured nails, the blouse and skirt that look too tight or a few sizes too small.  All of it together.  In any case, She has it all to get me going.

The more I contemplate, I think it is that the clothes are too tight/small that makes this a great photo.  A looser blouse that would cover the waistband of the skirt, and a knee-length (or below knee) skirt would change everything.  Her choice of shoes would too - flats would be more plain, and heeled strappy sandals would liven things up (then I'd be focusing on Her toes and arches :)

I'd be on my knees at Her feet in a second in submission.  I'm also wanting to be crossdressed in front of Her.  I imagine that I'd be wearing tan stockings, a white garter belt, white satin string panties, a white bra, and maybe a white camisole over top.  Heels too.

Oh man, it's been almost a year since my last blog post.  Argh!  A look through my Blogger Reading List shows that many of the blogs that I followed have also been silent for many months.  I guess Blogger is not the hot spot of the Internet any more.  I spend most of my internet time at Pintrest, Tumblr, or Chatropolis.

I wish I could tell you of grand crossdressing adventures - I wish I had the time for grand crossdressing adventures.  I haven't traveled in the last year, nor have I had time to go shopping for clothes.  I really wish I did have time to shop.  Now that spring is here, I really would like to go shopping for some new things, and then wear them out somewhere.

i recently came across this photo on Her website:

Now this photo has many things that i love:

• Strappy sandals to show off Her feet and toes. my imagination is running wild looking at Her feet.  i'll not bore you with those details just now.
• A nice high slit in Her skirt to show off Her legs and draw my attention up, up, and up, and up...
• A bare tummy.  i just love a cute tummy.  i haven't seen a woman's tummy that i didn't like.
• No bra.

So i'd like to ask this to the female readers of my blog that go braless: do you mind when men's (and i'm sure women's) eyes linger on those unbound breasts? i mean, i'd look at Her breasts even if She were wearing a bra, but the fact that She's not makes me want to look even more.  Especially in the one picture on Her blog where there's a hint of underboob.

The weather over last couple of days has finally matched the calendar - instead of the cold and rainy 50's it has warmed to the 80's.  Which of course means that my thoughts turn to wishing that I had the time to do some crossdressing outside and a place to do it.

One of the things that I loved to do when I was traveling to Florida for work a few years ago was to go running in women's running clothes.  This wasn't a very overt crossdressing activity as no one really pays much attention to runners (unless it's at a race).  Wearing the clothes felt good - I like the way they fit and that they were women's clothes.  I wore sports bras under a tank tops which felt wonderful.  Women's running shorts fit better than men's, and I like the shorter inseam. They looked good - women's running clothes are so much more exciting than men's boring and drab colors.

The need for some "me" time...

... but what I really mean is the need for some crossdressing time.  I wish I had a weekend, or better yet a whole week, to indulge.  It would be fun to spend that time in Las Vegas.  I think that would be the place where no one would blink an eye at the site of a crossdresser.  I could freely spend time shopping for panties, bras, maybe a girdle, stockings, and all sort of women's clothes (shoes, tops, shorts, pants, swimwear).  And I could wear them in places other than my hotel room, and not just in an androgynous kind of way or in the dark of night.  (I could bring my women's running clothes and run outside during the day!)  I'm sure there's a crossdressing service there that could give me a decent make-over - I've always wondered what I would look like if I wore make-up and a wig done correctly.  I imagine I'd look something like this.  It would be fun to get all dressed up and hang out with other CD/TG/TS's (I used to go to a support group, but I was never in full CD mode).  

Of course, something like this might be fun too!  Which leads me to think about the fun i could have if i had a Mistress to serve all the while.  i mean, She could have me try on clothes at the stores to Her satisfaction (or dissatisfaction).  i would only have female clothes in the room, and i would always be dressed as a female.

While we're in the hotel room, i would play the part of a cuckold as i'm only worthy of serving Her.  i would only get to watch Her with Her other lovers, and, maybe if i were lucky She would allow me to clean Her afterwards.  If i dissatisfied Her, She would have me clean them as well.  Later, She would tease me, edge me over and over, maybe use a strap-on on me, and all sorts of plugs.

Daydreaming ....

I found this picture the other day on Pintrest: white short-shorts, hosiery, and heels.  I just love this outfit!  I've worn something similar many times.  Wearing this combination just feels so sensual, and so very exposing.  There's nothing to hide the heels, the hosiery, or the see-throughness of white shorts.

One thing I've learned over the years about myself is that my interest and yearning to crossdress rises and falls with stress levels (but has never gone away, and likewise posting to my blog).  The last flurry of posts and dressing occurred during a high period of stress, and so now that I'm in another extended period of high stress, my wanting to crossdress is coming back with the faucet full open.

Unfortunately, I don't have any business trips to go on in the foreseeable future to allow me the time to go shopping and dress up, so I have to do it vicariously through the internet.  Spending any free moment on Pintrest or Tumblr has been a way to do so.  Let me know if you have a Pintrest account and I'll add you to my secret board.  Anyway, a few pictures from there have really caught my eye.

This one first.  I love her outfit - girdle with suspenders, satin bra, stockings, white pumps.  She's quite the passable and pretty CD.  If I could pull of that look, I would certainly do so - and I'd love to try!!

This one is a bit naughtier!  If you only look at her face, you're missing it!  The fun of wearing short-shorts and having an "Ooops!" moment (either unintentional or intentional, ok, so it's intentional for me!) is a big turn-on for me.

This one - very much an inspiration - wow!

I'd love get dressed up and then be at Her feet.